A relation can be many things, maybe you like an animal and have a special relationship with it or maybe a human, it can be so much and I am not going to tell you all. I will tell you about a relationship that is important to me.

Once in a time we were the happiest couple in the world, we did so much together. We kept no secrets from each other either. Sometimes we could sit for hours and just talk about life, and we understood each other. One day this fairy-tale ended and it was because of me and I am not proud of my decision but done was done. We didn't talk for months, she really hated me but I loved her.

Unfortunately I wasn't man enough to tell her that and this went on a few months more and then one day I decided to tell her that I loved her with my whole heart. She didn't believe me, I felt like a joke but I couldn't give up. So we started to talk to each other on the phone, I saw some hope in everything at this time. I started to dream about us again, together in a lovely life with kids and house. And then one day I wasn't worth a penny for her again, I was something she could put in the trash can and take up when she wanted. I felt worthless again, but I couldn't give up this time either, I wanted her so bad so if she wanted me to sacrifice my life I had done that, I was blinded by love. I was back on square one again. Then I found someone else and we were happy for a while but I just wanted my former girl so bad that i broke up with my present girlfriend and started once again to take her back. This time it was easier, we spend a lot of time with each other, it felt good but we weren't dating, just good friends and she told me over and over how much she liked me but just as a friend. And every time I asked “how should I do to make you love me again” she always replied “it is nothing you can do, I need to get over the fear of that you can leave me again” when she said that it felt like someone had pushed a knife trough my heart and twisted it around.

This went on and on a while and then one day she said to me that she had found someone else. My whole heart broke into pieces and I didn't know what to do. I gave up my fight to bring her back in to my life.

Today we are very good friends, we can talk about everything. We like each other a lot but not more than friends. Today I can look back on all this and learn something and that's what I want to tell all of you.

Remember that a relation to something is a lovely thing and don't just throw it away without thinking twice or even more about how you should do.

This is a real story from my life.

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Writer: David Näslund (te09-69@park.se).
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